Thursday, April 15, 2010

Find me.

http://caloriecount.about.com/profile/rawrbbyrawr

I hope that by posting this, it will motivate me to fill out my calorie count every day. If you're on here, add me!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

An introduction of sorts.

Hello!
My name is Ruth ((Ruthy to my friends)), I am a twenty-two year old lady. I greatly enjoy painting, Art History, reading and sewing//designing clothing. I live in a beautiful state, with beautiful people and gorgeous views. I work a kick-ass job and have some super rad friends! I make some amazing art, sew some rad things, and attend college too. What is my problem, you may ask? I am over-weight. Not just a size nine over-weight but plus-size-chunky-fat-awkward over-weight.

I have always been big. But recently I have decided that this has to stop. I am starting to get to the age where if I do not lose the weight now, I am going to have it the rest of my life. I do not want this. There are some people out there, who are beautiful larger- but I honestly feel as if I am not one of them.

I am making changes in my life. I have been weeding out the bad friends, so now I am weeding out the bad food choices and changing my eating habits. I am going to cut out the things that I am allergic to. Dairy: including milk and eggs. Meat: even the farm-fresh stuff. Wheat and gluten. Then, just to make it even better I am going to cut out soda and cut down on sweets.

I struggle with self-confidence. I feel like as if my body is revolting, that I have this beautiful person inside that hardly anyone can see through the layers of fat or past the jiggle of my body. I eat when I am lonely, when I am sad, when I am in pain, or when I am happy. I am hiding my true feelings behind food. THIS HAS TO STOP.

I am unhealthy. I have chronic pain issues, and a bad hip from a car-accident. I fear that my problems will get worse if I do not alter my life now. So this is it. This is my journey, to a better and fitter me. To health and to happiness!