An introduction of sorts.

Hello!
My name is Ruth ((Ruthy to my friends)), I am a twenty-two year old lady. I greatly enjoy painting, Art History, reading and sewing//designing clothing. I live in a beautiful state, with beautiful people and gorgeous views. I work a kick-ass job and have some super rad friends! I make some amazing art, sew some rad things, and attend college too. What is my problem, you may ask? I am over-weight. Not just a size nine over-weight but plus-size-chunky-fat-awkward over-weight.

I have always been big. But recently I have decided that this has to stop. I am starting to get to the age where if I do not lose the weight now, I am going to have it the rest of my life. I do not want this. There are some people out there, who are beautiful larger- but I honestly feel as if I am not one of them.

I am making changes in my life. I have been weeding out the bad friends, so now I am weeding out the bad food choices and changing my eating habits. I am going to cut out the things that I am allergic to. Dairy: including milk and eggs. Meat: even the farm-fresh stuff. Wheat and gluten. Then, just to make it even better I am going to cut out soda and cut down on sweets.

I struggle with self-confidence. I feel like as if my body is revolting, that I have this beautiful person inside that hardly anyone can see through the layers of fat or past the jiggle of my body. I eat when I am lonely, when I am sad, when I am in pain, or when I am happy. I am hiding my true feelings behind food. THIS HAS TO STOP.

I am unhealthy. I have chronic pain issues, and a bad hip from a car-accident. I fear that my problems will get worse if I do not alter my life now. So this is it. This is my journey, to a better and fitter me. To health and to happiness!